The trio (http://llresearch.org/) that brought in the Law of One material wondered how they could protect the “instrument,” Carla Rueckert, from psychic attack. This point was brought up directly:
63.5 Questioner: I know that you have already answered this question, but I feel it my duty now to ask it each time in case there is some new development, and that is, is there anything that we can do that we aren’t doing to lessen the effectiveness of the psychic attack upon the instrument?
Ra: I am Ra. Continue in love and praise and thanksgiving to the Creator. Examine previous material. Love is the great protector.
55.2 Ra…There is no magic greater than honest distortion toward love.
64.21 Ra…As always, love is the greatest protection.
How can love be the great protector? What might this powerful statement mean? If you asked ten people what their definition would be, you would get ten different answers based upon their filters and experience. There is probably not a wrong answer but there may be less distorted ones. So, for what it is worth, I offer my own distorted yet sincere take on love and how it can be the great protector.
Love Is All There IS
I’ll just jump to the conclusion right off the bat and say that everything you see, including yourself, is some form of congealed energy. And “the origin of all energy is the action of free will upon love” (54.27). You and I and everything we touch, smell, and feel today IS the Infinite Creator all held in union by the very essence of the Infinite Creator, and that essence is Love. As poet and priest, Gerard Manley Hopkins wrote intuiting the erotic-like pulsing of Love’s eternal whispers, “The world is charged with the grandeur of God.”
Love is the “clay” that the Infinite Creator used to mold creation in just such and such a way (ref. 27.12) and Love is the seamless fabric of Spirit that connects and collects all things together in a unceasing and unbreakable oneness. When you look up and see the stars, the stars also look down and see you. Who is really doing the seeing is the Infinite Creator seeing Itself through your eyes and the eyes of the stars which causes such joy and delight. If the “veil of forgetfulness” is the water surface differentiating an “above and below,” then what seems to be separate entities “below” is in reality different “fingers” plunged and wiggling from the “Hand” whose wholeness is seen in full from “above”.
Love is not only the “clay” that makes up the “Hand” (the fullness of Creation) but its essence is perceived AS that delight and joy by the energy field of the heart. Few things enkindle the heart as much as perceiving Love, the Spirit-net of oneness, in the face of another. In other words, when the “fingers” of that Hand commune with each other they are doing so because they are in Love; held and contained within the Love-Energy field of the Infinite Creator.
To sum, Ra says to look in the mirror, at the another person, and creation, and there you will see the Creator. To truly recognize that the Infinite Creator is omnipresent, everywhere, all things, and in all things, is how we can live in Love all the time, even during times of emotional distress. It is a re-membering, or oneing, or “putting back together” now in conscious awareness what has always and everywhere been true. It is the Manyness of the One remembering Its membership as the One.
The Veil’s Gift
In Third Density, which is our vibrational condition on Earth, we experience a veil of forgetting. The great fruit of this veil is that we develop an ability to perceive and gravitate towards the Light of Love through faith. Through the will to find our north star, and then the faith to follow it, we submerse ourselves into the waters of our spiritual journey. As we continually seek through our questions and live into the answers– which always lead to greater, expanded seeing of unity– we slowly awaken out of the dream and realize that we are the Infinite Creator doing exactly what Ra states in the Law of One material: “The original desire is that entities seek and become one (20.27).” The fundamental motivation for our desire to seek is Love’s urgent longing to re-connect and become whole with the Whole once more. Any answers into which we have lived and discovered through time that have ever satisfied us at deep levels do so precisely because they reveal at some level that we have never really been separate; that we have always been held, anchored into the fabric of the All.
Others have said the same for thousands of years. Here is how St. Paul says it in his letter to the Romans: “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the Love of God…”(Rm 8:38-39).
Why can’t we just know this from the beginning of our Third Density experience? Why all the seeking and finding? Why do we have to struggle with the pendulum of emotions between great happiness and deep despairing? Well actually, freedom from this pendulum swinging was the case for the first few “crops” of sub-sub logois (Third Density beings) in the beginning of our Logos’ outpouring of Its Creative Love into manifestation. Ra says that the early sub-sub logois lacked the veil of forgetting, since it was not yet conceived by the Logos, and these beings progressed along their spiritual evolution at the relative speed of the turtle to the cheetah (82.18). Moreover, their movement through the Third Density, even as it was exceedingly slow, did not give the Infinite Creator as robust an experience of Itself. Consider Ra’s comment in 82.22 where they address this exact point:
Ra: I am Ra. Consider, if you will, the tendency of those who are divinely happy, as you call this distortion, to have little urge to alter or better their condition. Such is the result of the mind/body/spirit which is not complex. There is the possibility of love of other-selves and service to other-selves, but there is the overwhelming awareness of the Creator in the self. The connection with the Creator is that of the umbilical cord. The security is total. Therefore, no love is terribly important; no pain terribly frightening; no effort, therefore, is made to serve for love or to benefit from fear.
82.28 Ra…Let us continue the metaphor of the schooling but consider the scholar as being an entity in your younger years of the schooling process. The entity is fed, clothed, and protected regardless of whether or not the schoolwork is accomplished. Therefore, the entity does not do the homework but rather enjoys playtime, mealtime, and vacation. It is not until there is a reason to wish to excel that most entities will attempt to excel.
The Logos, in concert with the other Logois, extended Free Will “down” the holarchy and into the experience of sub-sub logois. These sub-sub logois, as the Infinite Creator dancing the dance in Creation– as Creation– opened their eyes into a world that felt in every sense existing in separation. The veil allowed us to feel separate from each other, from other entities, and from the Infinite Creator. When the Earth human raised her glance to the sky and asked, “Where did I come from?” a spark tapped the Spirit which until then laid in potentiation. There was a very subtle remembering of the oneness from which she came…something just out of reach, on the edge of her subconscious. There, but clouded in the fog of mystery. Her question about her origins was her initial act of faith and first conscious step into the spiritual life.
The gift of the veil of forgetting is that we are given the opportunity to experience an intensity of being which did not exist and does not exist in any other time or place in creation. Third Density as it now is unique in this. What is required is our “YES” to the constant pull of surrender into the Spirit of The One; the magnet that is Love. In order to whole-heartedly give our “yes,” we strengthen our muscle of faith.
Access to the Force Field of Love: Faith
Faith is a word that has been so overlaid with different meaning over time and across cultures that its power does not shock us anymore. It should because faith is the key to entering into the Great Protection of the Force Field/Source Field of Love. Faith’s first echoes in our lives call to us from our heart center. As Ra says, the energy center of the heart beckons and bids upward the energy from the lower chakra triad. Once this upward spiraling energy finds its flow relatively streamlined in its path the heart as the green ray center is activated in earnest. Walking in faith, trusting, seeking, stumbling, and getting up, all while holding onto hope and gratitude together grease the wheels in the churning flow of the lower triad. What is opened is the pearl of great price, because through the heart we awaken to universal oneness and be filled with the resonance of the very Heart of the Logos, Itself.
Ra states that the center of the heart, the green ray, is the springboard into the higher chakras. Note here that access to the heart as well as keeping heart-doors open, even and especially in difficult times and places, takes the muscle and determination of a streamlined lower triad. Yet the heart as a center is passive, it receives. It is the great gateway to fuller gnosis of the Infinite Creator, as the Infinite Creator, and is the Cosmic-Love Receptor that is finally able to receive in greater and greater intensities fuller instreamings of Cosmic Love. Here, we stand shoulder to shoulder with St. Paul, saying, “No longer I, but Christ [Logos] who lives within me.” From here, we can finally understand with a lived recognition what the mystics like Meister Eckhart describe, “The eye with which I see is the same eye with which God sees me.”
For those who have accessed the heart, and I imagine it is most of the readers of this article, it feels like a warm and even hot flame in the chest area that radiates outwardly and burns deeply. There is such a joy, akin to what a kid might feel at Christmas, but the joy fills the whole torso and upper body. Everything feels charged with delight. And every breath stirs the fires all the more; burning and burning. The object of the joy is not projected onto any event in the future or thing or person. It is the sheer joy of existing in the right here, right now, awakened to the Oneness of all. It’s as if the heart had tried to pick up a faint radio signal of unimaginable beauty and spending much time and energy in learning how to turn the dial until the signal hits its target range. The music is silence, the air is golden and vibrating as Love plucks the notes that warm the heart to high heat. There is the Eros of the moment where one feels that just being present in the silence and stillness is an ultimate act of making love to Love. You just want to die into Love, fully surrender and give over, to return completely yourself and all that you are as a gift to the Giver who gave you, you. The longing to complete the circle, this divine flow of love between the Infinite Creator and Its sub-sub logos Self, fills the body and mind so completely that there is nothing left to give. Consider the words of St. Theresa of Avila, a Spanish mystic who described her own experience against the backdrop of bridal-mysticism, the language and ethos available to her at her time:
It pleased our Lord that I should see the following vision a number of times. I saw an angel near me, on the left side, in bodily form. This I am not wont to see, save very rarely…. In this vision it pleased the Lord that I should see it thus. He was not tall, but short, marvelously beautiful, with a face which shone as though he were one of the highest of the angels, who seem to be all of fire: they must be those whom we call Seraphim…. I saw in his hands a long golden spear, and at the point of the iron there seemed to be a little fire. This I thought that he thrust several times into my heart, and that it penetrated to my entrails. When he drew out the spear he seemed to be drawing them with it, leaving me all on fire with a wondrous love for God. The pain was so great that it caused me to utter several moans; and yet so exceeding sweet is this greatest of pains that it is impossible to desire to be rid of it, or for the soul to be content with less than God.
This is the heart opened to Love, the essence of the Infinite Creator. And from this new foundation of being, the sub-sub Logos can now consciously assume her or his rightful mantle as Co-Creator: the Infinite Creator awakened from the dream and ready to do work. From inside this golden vortex of Love’s fiery torrent, we are protected and made whole. Negative entities, who themselves thrive in fragmentation, cannot abide by the lumens of wholeness. Even our own brokenness is transcended and included into a higher wholeness which is consummated by our continual acts of intentional surrender into Love. Surrendering takes great courage, will, and most of all, faith, because our constant “yes” is needed so that Love’s current can fully transmit along the medium of Free Will. Faith leads us to seek and live into the answers our hearts desire.
As the original idea is for all entities to seek and become one, so it is thus with the separate parts of us in our inner life. The balancing inside of us is paramount because as we approach more and more internal integration, we approach the wholeness of being that is protective simply by virtue of the intense brilliance. Entities who are negative feel a repulsion against the light for the burning of such integrity is intolerable for the entity who has chosen separation.
Know Thy Self
Some Law of One scholars offer that its most important message is actually Ra’s teaching on healing and balance. To enter into our inner lives with the desire for balancing requires relentless honesty. Once there and engaged, we have some tools we can use to bring together the separate and desperate toots and beats of our inner orchestra whose individual instruments have not yet begun to play in unison.
You and I are the conductors in this work.
As you step up to the conductor’s podium, you see before you the written musical score whose notes and measures make up the “music theory,” the divine tools, that structure the process of integration. You look up and see before you the different parts of yourself. You see the light and the shadow waiting in anticipation for the music to begin. You hold space for both the brokenness and wholeness together. Just before you begin moving the baton to mark the rhythm that undergirds the work, you flex your lower-chakra-triad muscle and will yourself to surrender into Love. See the following two quotes where Ra explains that the value of surrender, or “the losing,” is THE way in which energy is transformed. The great symbol for “death-begets-life” is the Cross and has its origins the archetypal mind of the Logos, Itself:
“…[The] cross indicating that nature of manifestation which may only be valued by the losing. Thus the crux ansata is intended to be seen as an image of the eternal in and through manifestation and beyond manifestation through the sacrifice and transformation of that which is manifest” (93.24).
“The cross formed by the living limbs of the image signifies that which is the nature of mind/body/spirit complexes in manifestation within your illusion. There is no experience which is not purchased by effort of some kind, no act of service to self or others which does not bear a price, to the entity manifesting, commensurate with its purity. All things in manifestation may be seen in one way or another to be offering themselves in order that transformations may take place upon the level appropriate to the action” (94.26).
You love yourself, you love the Infinite Creator, and you trust with the same faith of the likes of Julian of Norwich who said, “All will be well and all will be well and every kind of thing shall be well.” You experientially know for certain what Ra asserts as the foundational recognition: The moment contains love (10.14). With your great falling into Love through faith, you draw upon the Infinite Source and you are ready to begin conducting. The music begins and at first, there is discord. Facing the self, moving into balance and rhythm usually feels discordant in the beginning. There are out-of-sync BLASTS from horns and seemingly rhythmless CLANGING and CLASHING of symbols and drums. Thus begins the first movement of the piece.
As the conductor, you do not fret at the cacophony since you know that everything belongs and has its place. The title of this movement is “Acceptance.” See what is there, all the vices and virtues, and accept them as they are. Accept yourself as you are: both broken and whole, at the same time. The conductor sees the whole-self, the full orchestra, with Love and Wisdom and then with a confidence and determination begins to hone in on certain areas of the self that can be granted forgiveness. This granting of the extremely higher energetic of forgiveness will bring structure to chaos, calm to frenzy, and radiance to shadow.
The second movement of your score is “Forgiveness.” Bring to your mind’s eye a thought that is distressing you. Name the thought. Find out what emotion that is paired with the thought. Name that emotion. Find out where the thought/emotion lives in your body. Bring your breathing into this body-mind balancing exercise. Breathe fresh oxygen into the dwelling place and visualize it as white light brought in to cleanse and make whole. Forgive yourself for your brokenness, forgive yourself for feelings of anxiety or depression or loneliness or trauma. Forgive the thought/emotion, itself, for existing. By forgiving it, you begin to bring focus into the chaos. As above, so below; therefore, see how you as Co-Creator bring light into the darkness in the same way the Logos brings about the first structures of the universe:
“The white light which emanates and forms the articulated sub-Logos has its beginning in what may be metaphysically seen as darkness. The light comes into that darkness and transfigures it, causing the chaos to organize and become reflective or radiant” (40.41).
Through granting forgiveness, the negative energy is not transmitted anywhere else. It is not projected or displaced onto anyone or anything else. Nor does it sit in place and fester. Instead, it is transformed into a new radiance, a higher vibration.
You become your own healer through love, acceptance, and forgiveness of yourself. You will begin to feel a subtle detachment from the grip of subjectivity of the anxiety or depression or whatever is possessing you. Keep forgiving. Ra reminds us what our intuition knows: Forgiveness stops karma.
So, through faith we face ourselves, we accept ourselves, we forgive ourselves. This work takes a lot of time and many attempts but the result is priceless because the very process of knowing, accepting, and loving the self IS the process of balancing that is so crucial. Thusly, the all important Green Ray center will not only be actualized but becomes the new threshold, the new center, for a person’s experience of being. This is total transformation or as traditional Christian language puts it: One is born from “above.” See here what Ra says:
To the student of the balancing process we may suggest that the most stringent honesty be applied. As compassion is perceived it is suggested that, in balancing, this perception be analyzed. It may take many, many essays into compassion before true universal love is the product of the attempted opening and crystallization of this all-important springboard energy center. Thus the student may discover many other components to what may seem to be all-embracing love. Each of these components may be balanced and accepted as part of the self and as transitional material as the entity’s seat of learn/teaching moves ever more fairly into the green ray (85.16).
For those of us who know the path of surrender, we can speak through experience to those not so practiced at the art: “It feels like a dying.” Rigorous honesty of our brokenness or unhealed (dis-integrated) places hurts and we have to let that go, too. I’d like to suggest here that when you can do this–see yourself with the honesty required for transformation–you are actually going through the experience of being put in the resonating chamber of the Great Pyramid. What I mean is, Ra’s group created the Great Pyramid as a gift to humanity so that healing, initiation, and adept work could be learned through the “training wheels” (60.13) of its shape and chambers. Ra says that the pyramid is no longer really needed for transformation (though useful in other ways for many) if one listens to their life through the catalysts of the moment and learns to be balanced in their efficient use. This is just my opinion, but the resonating chamber was meant to give the person an experience of dying so that they let go, surrender completely, accept their situation totally, and forgive it which creates the sufficient unblocking of the lower-traid necessary for upper-chakra triad activation. To surrender, accept, and forgive, as we have mentioned above, IS to streamline the lower-chakra triad and to activate the heart. The heart-activated person is the “resurrected” person, “born from above,” and now knows with a certainty that all dying leads to rising– always. See Ra’s own description:
65.20 Questioner: I don’t know if this question is related to what I am trying to get at or not, but I’ll ask it and see. You mentioned in speaking of the pyramids that the resonating chamber was used so that the adept could meet the self. Would you explain what you meant by that?
Ra: I am Ra. One meets the self in the center or deeps of the being. The so-called resonating chamber may be likened unto the symbology of the burial and resurrection of the body wherein the entity dies to self and through this confrontation of apparent loss and realization of essential gain, is transmuted into a new and risen being.
Ra says, “The blue-ray center of energy streaming is the center which, for the first time, is outgoing as well as inpouring” (15.12). Entrance to the wisdom chakra, or blue-ray center is immediate upon achieving a minimal threshold of heart activation . When we grant universal Love access to our heart’s receptor site, we do indeed become the conductor as mentioned above. In fact, the work of self-knowledge through acceptance and forgiveness requires not only the heart but the Wisdom center (throat chakra) as well. Think of it this way: When you’ve an overflowing source of Love in your well, you can decide where you will let it flow. The “you” that decides what endeavors are appropriate is taking place within energetics of the upper-chakra triad. This is the “heart-mind” or Love-Wisdom center and the “blue-ray entity is a Co-Creator” (41.25). Note well that Will and Faith have opened the gates thus far. When we have Love and begin to feel that we ARE Love, then we become Cosmic Lovers, or Co-Creators. We are the Infinite Creator’s boots on the ground.
Being a Lover in this cosmic sense is what Ra describes as an adept. This is 6th chakra or Indigo Ray work. It seems that Lovers operate on a wide continuum of ability, from the neophyte who is just awakening to what and who they are and their responsibilities, therein, to the advanced high white magical adept who has learned to channel their Higher Self (a Sixth Density phenomenon) at will in Third Density.
Cosmic Lovers know at the depths of their core that they are the Infinite Creator having a Third Density experience and they remember to some degree their mission– their reason for incarnating at this time, on this planet. They are manifested Love/Light now awakened and poised to issue forth Light/Love which will help author transformation to the multitude. And they assume the conductor’s podium again, and this time the orchestra’s instruments are those of the whole Body of humanity of which we are all parts. This is so because transformed people transform people.
Many of you reading this article are Cosmic Lovers and have a variety of gifts you give the world through your being here and following your desires to serve. One need not be an official adept practiced at the art of high white magic to be a Cosmic Lover. Your continual surrender to Love will move you along the path to crystallization. That is Ra’s word for one whose will has become totally in line with the will of the Infinite Creator. In fact, Ra says that the crystallized healer has no will of their own (66.15). Jesus was known as the Ihidaya: The Single One. Consider this wonderful description from http://unruly.ghost.io/ihidaya/
Ihidaya is the Syriac-Aramaic word that describes souls that enter into mystical oneness. It’s direct translation has commonly been, “single one,” or “singleness,” or “unified one.” Over the centuries, it’s been translated to mean Jesus was unmarried. More recently, many scholars believe it has another meaning.
Quo suggests that Jesus was so able to channel the Logos that for periods of time, he ceased the channeling and BECAME the Logos which could then engage with Third Density face to face in an intense, vivid way. This gives an important nuance and likely the real reason why Christians say that Jesus is both fully human and fully God. He was, as all crystalized healers are, the Single One (Ihidaya). Jesus wasn’t unique in the dual natures because all of Creation is exactly the same. For humanity, it took seeing the mystery of union take place in one body, in one period of time for us to get that we, too, are this. Unfortunately for Jesus and for humanity, we made him into an object of worship instead of following him and finding our own identity in the Infinite Creator as he did. He asserted, “The Father and I are One,” and this goes for you and me, too.
Crystalized humans are activated and balanced. They are the Cosmic Lovers in full bloom. People who are crystalized or near-crystallization usually do not say that they are crystalized or near-crystalized. Humility is the great hallmark for them because they know, like Ra, that they are humble messengers of the law of one through their being here and through their actions (74.11). Their constant surrender to Love keeps their energy centers balanced and thus their “energies lie waiting for the hand of the Creator to pluck harmony” (54.16). They have disciplined the personality through “acceptance of self, forgiveness of self, and the direction of the will…” Ra continues, “Your faculty of will is that which is powerful within you as co-Creator. You cannot ascribe to this faculty too much importance. Thus it must be carefully used and directed in service to others for those upon the positively oriented path” (52.7).
As I mentioned before, the Cosmic Lover (aka Co-Creator, Crystalized Healer, the Conductor) knows how to direct the flow of Love into helping others and into the work of lightening the planetary vibrations (12.27, 52.9, 65.11). This use of the will is exercised upon the foundation of the activated heart center– the metaphysical organ whose beat continually pulses and pushes the energy of the lower triad into the waterfall of kenosis: self-emptying surrender into Love.
The Lover Protects
We spoke above as to how Love protects because it is the essence of unity, the lumens of wholeness, that most negative entities simply find so bright that it causes them pain. They flee in light of such Light. Yet there are those negative adepts who are experts in the art of hacking, tricking, mimicking, tempting, influencing, and emphasizing another’s life-limiting distortions while dampening down their ability to discern as well. These adept black magicians come from all different places. Some exist on the inner planes, some are incarnated in Third Density Earth, and some are negative alien-hermits who spend their energy by wielding light so as to control and manipulate others. These clever beings do not respect free will AND they do not want to lose polarity simultaneously (69.9). The best way for them to assert control over others is by tricking them into using their free will to submit themselves to the plan of the black adept without knowing it.
In the case of Carla, the instrument of the Law of One Material, we see Ra explaining much about the circumstances of infringement of a Fifth Density black adept, an Orion Empire lord. The L/L Research team’s channeling Ra work produced such bright metaphysical light that it attracted the attention of the negative adept. See here:
68.16 The entity [black adept] becomes aware of power. This power has the capacity of energizing those which may be available for harvest. This entity is desirous of disabling this power source. It sends its legions. Temptations are offered. They are ignored or rejected. The power source persists and indeed improves its inner connections of harmony and love of service.
The entity determines that it must needs attempt the disabling itself. By means of projection it enters the vicinity of this power source. It assesses the situation. It is bound by the first distortion [Free Will] but may take advantage of any free will distortion. The free will, pre-incarnative distortions of the instrument with regards to the physical vehicle seem the most promising target. Any distortion away from service to others is also appropriate.
In other words, the black adept wants to hack the system and exploit loopholes. By virtue of the expansive gift of seeing appropriate to the Wisdom Density (Fifth), he/she could see into Carla’s life-narrative including her pre-incarnational choices that she made for herself and use them to his/her advantage. The adept then created thoughtforms that entered into her system through her violet ray and affected her mind with surgical precision that trickled down into her renal areas. There the thoughtforms worked like a knife attempting to sever the metaphysical tendons that connected her Third Density damaged-but-functioning kidneys in space/time from her perfected kidneys held in analog in time/space. If this severing were completed, her kidneys would have lost their ability to draw from their perfected analog in her form-maker body (time/space body) and she would have died (62.5).
The black adept continued to find ways to hurt Carla physically but nothing was really working. It attempted another tactic and this time the adept made some inroads. He/she was able to:
…pierce the same violet ray and move to two places to attempt most of its non-physical opportunities. It activated the green-ray energy center while further blocking indigo-ray energy center [thereby enhancing a Love over Wisdom disposition]. This combination causes confusion in the instrument and subsequent over-activity in unwise proportions in physical complex workings [this made Carla fall into subtle trajectory towards martyrdom for the sake of the contact. Ra states that this would be using Love without Wisdom and thus a definite step backward for someone as advanced as Carla was]. [The adept] simply seeks out the distortions pre-incarnatively programmed and developed in incarnative state (72.17).
Perhaps another way to understand what went on in the above example would be to draw a parallel with the regression that may occur when you and I feel sick, sad, or in some sort of transition and reeling from the edginess of chaos. It is a natural phenomenon to regress for a bit. We temporarily fall back upon more primitive states of acting and thinking. What is happening energetically at that point is that we, for the moment, close off the fifth and sixth chakras. This results in diminished reason, wisdom, or clear seeing. We feel like we are in a fog and just surviving. Sometimes we even block the Heart chakra so that we operate just from the power center of the lower-chakra triad. Because of this, we may have a lot of will but we don’t have a lot of love or wisdom.
In any case, it seems that the black adept facilitated this type of regression on Carla. He/she entered into her energetic field through her violet ray and worked to block her indigo center while artificially opening her heart chakra more–not towards more universal love but in order to create in her a regression where a Love-over-Wisdom imbalance took hold. We also learn from Ra that blockage in the indigo center makes for strong feelings of unworthiness, too (15.12). Who knows what the personal effects to Carla was at that time of this forced blockage of her indigo center, but it would not surprise me if she felt some sort of emotional distress and urgency because in her mind a bit of her sense of worth-within-relationship to the other members of L/L Research was connected to her being able to perform as the instrument. Therefore the simultaneous blockage of the indigo center and intensifying of the heart center, coupled with her already robust will (lower triad) resulted in her very strong drive to do her part for the team to the detriment of herself.
This is exactly how a clever black adept would do it. Prey and play upon our distortions so that we freely choose imbalances in our lives. If we fall out of balance, then we loose some degrees of crystallization or streamlining of our energy centers and thus our light, metaphysically speaking, is less bright–less dangerous for the negative polarity. It is very telling that Ra expressed a couple of times to Carla that she should contemplate more and more on how she is the Creator. Ra states:
77.6 Ra: The instrument was instructed to spend space/time contemplating itself as the Creator. This, done in a more determined fashion, would be beneficial at times when the mind complex is weakened by severe assaults upon the distortions of the body complex towards pain. There is no necessity for negative thought-forms regardless of pain distortions. The elimination of such creates the lack of possibility for negative elementals and other negative entities to use these thought-forms to create the worsening of the mind complex deviation from the normal distortions of cheerfulness/anxiety.
In other words, Ra tells us here that the psychic attack on Carla through blocking her indigo center–which then led to pain flairs and some emotional distress–could be corrected in part if she intentionally reopened this center by delving deeply in the mystery of Being, itself: that she (and we) are the Infinite Creator. Contemplation of ourselves as the Creator is properly a sixth chakra, indigo-ray, activity and doing so in a balanced way will reactive this center and thus regain our sense of vocation and perspective. Doing it in a balanced way means to remembering to flex the lower-triad’s will-power muscle for the necessary purity of the surrendering into Love (the heart-center activation). As stated previously, to properly balance ourselves in this way, we follow Ra’s advice about full acceptance of ourselves, forgiveness of our selves, and re-focus our intentions upon being wielders of Light/Love.
As always, Ra reminds us, that falling into the present moment with all of its unfolding IS the process by which we intuit the presence of Love (10.14). In Love’s force field, we accept, forgive, and then remember who we are (the Creator), we direct Love’s flow (52.7). Carla could do this all of her life. No matter how down she felt or how broken her body became, she could always regain perspective through her falling upwards into Love’s abiding presence and thereby stand firm once again as her adept self. For “there is no magic greater than honest distortion toward love” (55.2).
Love is who you are. Love is where came from and Love is where you are going. Love made you, and Love guides you. All we can do is learn to say our “Yes” to Love’s relentless beckoning. Love is the essence of the Infinite Creator and it is the Spirit-net that holds all the Many Parts together in union of the One, as the One. Unity is not uniformity– that all things must express Love in just the same way. No…unity is diversity overcome by Love. Richard Rohr, OFM, who is not highly esoteric nevertheless agrees with Ra quite well:
Your True Self is who you are, and always have been in God; and at its core, it is love itself. Love is both who you are and who you are still becoming, like a sunflower seed that becomes its own sunflower. Most of human history has referred to the True Self as your “soul” or “your participation in the eternal life of God.” The great surprise and irony is that “you,” or who you think you are, have nothing to do with your True Self’s original creation or its ongoing existence. This is disempowering and utterly empowering at the same time. There’s nothing you can do to make God love you more; and there’s nothing you can do to make God love you less. All you can do is nurture your True Self, which is saying quite a lot. It is love becoming love in this unique form called “me.”
Love protects precisely because it is the seamless garment of being that recognizes and remembers wholeness. And to surrender into Wholeness is to put on the armoring of Love. Any entity or thoughtform that is not ready for wholeness to this degree, flees. Moreover, even if we attract the attention of a highly adept negative entity whose magical abilities are well beyond our own in this Third Density experience, we can link hearts together in Love and create such a protection that attacks will simply be baffled and dropped. See here: “It is not within your conscious selves to stand against such refined power but rather it has been through the harmony, the mutual love, and the honest calling for aid from the forces of light which have given you the shield and buckler” (87.6).
Because we are still striving for wholeness in our Third Density experience, it takes us quite a bit of practice in learning how to receive catalysts in our lives with the perspective of love and wisdom. Faith drives us onward in our seeking and finding. When we are ready, we put on the mantle of the Cosmic Lover and assume our rightful place as Co-Creators, fractals of the Infinite Creator, whose great joy, honor, and responsibility is to be radiators of Love/Light so that we cease to transmit negative energy but instead transform it. We are the alchemical artists who smooth the frenzy into radiant mirrors. And these mirrors reflect back Creation’s glance that which it is: The Infinite Creator.